The Amp for My Guitar

you tried to stay alive
when they cornered you

the spies

tried to take your life
all they left was just despised
they were jealous of the fact
you were unmistaken in our act

your vision it so drew the crowd
your shadow crowds my track

i simmer in the background
'cause they yell for you once more

the spies they lied
they tried critique
they thought they'd boost their score

their thoughts include themselves
you might wish that yours would too

you might find the right solution
then you'd add a spy
one more

to their battalion
and they'd demolish all that could endure
and stake a claim
unto their name

'till no one could compare
they'd bet you and they'd stare

because it's you who

who'd win the dare

Alternate Reality

the clouds they swirl
the seas stay still
my mind is blank
no thrills

take no chances
steal no glances

but you dont mistake me still

and though your arms are cold
and your expression shows so ill

the wrinkles and the wear
are not enough to hide
your stare

and a passing shock
wont stop the flock

of kisses on your sill

a beckon call
of hearts that fall
onto the ground
at will

to see your soul
under the fold

of universes changed
a beacon's range
for better days

we'll always find our way

Confusion Nothing Less

what you offer me
i take without a question
humbly

i refuse the greatest
I'd rather take the lesser

you prod and poke
you beg me
still
i am my own progressor

you offer me
i know the cost
an you'd expect no less

then me to accept graciously
and hold myself
in jest

I'd service you
if you could prove
that you were just the best

but in my mind
i am the prize

Confusion nothing less

DEATH-HAHAHA.... lol

to me death means the end of suffering
the end of a trial, the end of anything
so if i talk about death in a poem it doesn't necessarily mean someone dies
it is juss the end of something
or the end of the poem

EXPAND YOUR MINDS PEOPLE!!!!!!!!

A Compass

polarity
comparing me
as left is to the right

you're daring me
he stares at me

controls me with his eyes
peripheral
my vision slows

blinking
close my eyes

the spell is stalled
he took my all
until our gaze is met

you steer me with
your vehement

your slicing stare it kills

my hair stands on my neck

while the camera snaps the stills

like a statue

courage wrecked

and fear it grips

with chills

apprehensive

fear it lesser

if you told me how you feel

Enslaved

my thoughts they just unravel
if you don't guide me on my quest

my heart is filled with gravel
weighs so heavy in my chest

my thoughts could not conceive control
the power you possess

to feed my aura
energy
till i can never rest

until your heart's right next to mine
your breath it mocks my breath

my mission to ensure a slave
our life paid for by death

The Golden Earth

In a world of bliss
they dance along the golden grass
we framed the other side as if
we knew the song

they loved the fact
we left our life

forfeit

and we waved our flag
so much too much
effort
discipline not opposed by us
but not taught

and now we hang our heads
an listen to the deafening silence

the death of our world

the limbs they bend their arms

outstretched they beg for help
as they dance along the golden grass
that once was green

repent?

too late they mock an flash their prize
the future of the golden earth?

we rot till our demise

Do You Regret the HELP?

well it just seems to me
you're only hurting yourself
I'm just so got damned talented
and you immerse yourself
now you're waist deep
don't turn back now
you'll only hurt yourself

Laps against the small of your back
and you regret the HELP
hair stands on end
there seems to lack
the humane sense of heat
breath so ice cold
and now behold
that there's no turning back



~Ashley M. Carter~

Get So Lucky

would you love it
i should ask you
i could die right now
i would love it, tell me HONEY
should i suicide now?
but its public...
can you give me something merciful now?
power strikes me
is it possible to have a drive now
i could do it
get so lucky
as to slide right down
crash me lucky
get so lucky
i should drive right now


bet you'd love it
you'd be lucky
if i died right now

~ Ashley M. Carter~

An Autumn Eye- Lashes Fall

i see i am
so so alone
voices sound but still so cold
blurring
lashes fall
into my eyes
I DONT CRY
it's just those lashes
fall in my eyes
autumn breeze
blows them away
please come
come out
but i Don't play
Fall in my eyes

~Ashley M. Carter~

I Spiral

spiral into nothingness
my heart sticks just like glue
because it cannot be opened
by anyone but you
my eyes are swollen shut
but i have more behind my head
'cause i see into them
while you mistake me for dead
you wish you would
you wish you would
now don't you
you should say
because i see into you
no you can't hide from me
but silence adds to nothingness
and life is short of meaning
so we stay silent
love's degraded
to something short of meaning
and we live life
a meaningless existence
'cause my life's short of you.

~Ashley M. Carter~

Stationary Son

you cannot fathom
what is me
i cannot change
what others see
bottles float
the paper wastes
the truth is lost
a son is gone

i cannot fathom
who is me
you cannot change
my vision sees
you're stationary
i write on you
you still can't see
whats under you



~Ashley M. Carter~

HELLO.... HELLO....

HELLO! HELLO!
i'm standing there, i thought you said you need me
HELLO! HELLO!
i'm standing here, is it so hard to see me?
HELLO! HELLO!
im on your time, i see im worth a Penny
Discarded on Deserted streets and ragged clothes confuse them
HELLO!.. hello?... are you ok?
and now i just amuse them
My Baby said he loves me
As i Stumble down the street
My Baby said he loves me
moth eaten shoes cover my feet
my baby said he loves me
.... and as he drives down the main street......
I SCREAM at him HELLO! HELLO!
and he drives right on past me

~Ashley M. Carter~

Don't Forget

well i thought i told you one day before
maybe it was just a dream but i thought it was more
i thought you said you wouldn't lie i thought you said much more
than what you showed me, i never lied when i told you your score
so when you stab me in the back the pain is maximized
cuz everything you said was crap
the pain stays in my eyes

yea you said you won't forget
i should have known it then
the movie that you made for me was only just pretend


~Ashley M. Carter~

........ %JUST KNOW DAT%

pain so exponential
drain
me so substantial
that i could never feign
existence
loneliness irradicated
only when you play

~Ashley M. Carter~

WASTE AWAY

love dies, cuz it dies
it wishes to die, begs me for
painless merciful more,
be me beg me beg me beg beg
beg to die with them, and you cry
waste time
waste days
waste months
waste years
waste away waste away waste away waste away
wat is selfishness, beg for mercy no more pain?
then im a selfish bitch and i wish the pain away.
i waste away over this bullshit
i wanna waste away


~Ashley M. Carter~

how can i

how can i tell you without telling you
well this is how i start:

i love the way you hit me
and how i came to park
i love it when you lie to me
and how you stop and stare
and slice me with those blades of eyes
thats how i know you care
i love the way you torture me
and take her from my view
i love the way you hate me just as much as i hate you

~Ashley M. Carter~

a ufo

i wish......
an the sound explodes my thoughts
i forgot
now how can you reimburse me?
tell me please
so priceless
my dreams
come to me
an you snatch them away
without one thought
towards me
or the realness of your deed

so how can i
shoot this down
this foreign object in my thoughts
your voice in my head
i wish that it was dead
along with your soul
your heart

till behold

you are no longer there
an my thoughts flow so free
there's no more use for these
endless poetries
i will have peace

In Hiding

Today was a bad day

I died today

I watched my life from the sky

And my soul died

My body was blind

To true feelings

The signs

I got from my dreams

Fueled my being

And she flew flew away

Till her heart touched the sky

And she died

And You think You're so Smart

So how did you do it?

Tell me once more

Guide me

And teach me

Tell me my score

Grade me my work

And I sell you my skill

The way I just fooled you

I gave you my frill

My pride and my gussie

And all of my thrills

Just for a class

Of your infamous

tricks

If You Hinder My Vision

The whisps of a hair across my face

Not mine

blood and the remains of one

from whom life was stripped

And my dense demeanor remains

In her place

Never will there be another

Golden hair across my face

And I throw

a decapitated frame away

My heart in his chest... and my lips on his neck

no one can ever understand
the span of my life on his trek
my heart in his chest
and my lips on his neck
you'd think i'd be found out before he caught debt

his thoughts to console
and my hands to unfold
a secret to never repent

i would love him till death
And my punishment met
and my jail time would hinder his trek
through death valley he holds
my heart in his soul
his punishment never was met